This Flights of Fancy is supposed to be about what’s going on in my life, and why I’ve been a little quieter lately. I’m sure readers probably haven’t noticed, but I can’t stop thinking about it. The thing is, I’m not really good with talking about personal stuff. I never have been. Something about writing down my struggles makes me feel icky, probably because I feel like I’m whining. I’ve read other bloggers say the same thing, and I’ve always been quick to point out how they should write what’s in their heart, because that’s what we love to read. So, I’m giving it a go today, because I believe it’s relevant to Birdie Bookworm.
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So, I guess to start, Mr Birdie has a pretty critical foot wound which has put him out of work. His short term disability has run out and he’s not going to be away from work long enough to qualify for long term. What it means is half of our income is gone, which for us is pretty detrimental. We are so thankful to have the best group of family and friends who have been so spectacular I can’t even describe it. I’m not sure what we would have done without their support and assistance. It’s still an extremely stressful situation right before Christmas, especially when you have a child. I know Christmas isn’t about gifts, but every parent wants to give their kid the best Christmas morning so thinking about how we’re going to make that happen right now hurts my heart. Cross your fingers, he might be able to go back to work next week which would be amazing.
Then, last weekend my poor sweet baby boy Ziggy fell off the back of the couch and tore his ACL. His screams were awful, and then all weekend he barely moved. He just wanted to sleep. Per our vets advice, we gave it the weekend to see if it was a minor injury and if he would get better on his own. On Monday it was decided we needed to have him seen. Thankfully Yorkie’s are small because if you have a large dog, and the ACL is torn, surgery is your only option. (Expensive surgery.) Since Ziggy is such a little guy we decided to try complete cage rest and around the clock medicine for pain, sedation, nerve damage, and inflammation.
Now, a couple things I should explain, Yorkie’s (and particularly my Ziggy) hate to be caged. The’re the definition of lap dogs. When they’re not with you, they’re miserable. He also hates the medicine we’re giving him, and he’s smart. Once he’s realized the food/treat has a pill in it he’ll no longer eat that type of food/treat. Our fridge is now full of half eaten things we’ve tried to hide a pill in! Basically, it’s like having a newborn again. It’s been so hard.
When you add these new developments to my normal everyday stresses, like work, home, children and my other pets, I feel very thin emotionally. My mind is moving a mile a minute. I’m constantly visualizing how I need to rearrange my house (so Ziggy can’t get on the back of the furniture again), figuring out how to get a few sets of doggy stairs (because Ziggy won’t be able to jump up and down from the couch anymore), and figuring out how to cover everything financially. My brain is never shutting off, which makes it really hard to read and write. I’m laying down in the evening, which used to be prime reading time, and I’m too exhausted to keep my eyes open. So far I’ve only finished 2 books in November. One was before everything happened, the second I just finished. I’m currently reading a TJ Klune book and I still can’t focus!
Which brings me to the point of this post: Keeping up with Birdie Bookworm has been hard recently. I’m managing, but barely, and I don’t have a lot of time left to go visiting. I am still popping around if I can, but my time is limited right now. I should take some time away, but I’m way too committed to Birdie Bookworm to think about a hiatus right now, so I’m definitely not going anywhere. I may be a bit quieter while I figure out how to balance all this new strife in my life, and while I learn to not be so militant about my blogging schedule. A date change only effects me, and probably in a good way because it relieves an added stress.
I’m sure it won’t take long. I’m pretty good at problem solving.
On a happier note, Baby Chick is a straight A student and she’s playing Ms. Hannigan in her school performance of Annie. I’m looking forward to it!
Thanks for listening to me blabber on.
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