Review | Pansies


About the Book: Alfie Bell is . . . fine. He’s got a six-figure salary, a penthouse in Canary Wharf, the car he swore he’d buy when he was eighteen, and a bunch of fancy London friends.

It’s rough, though, going back to South Shields now that they all know he’s a fully paid-up pansy. It’s the last place he’s expecting to pull. But Fen’s gorgeous, with his pink-tipped hair and hipster glasses, full of the sort of courage Alfie’s never had. It should be a one-night thing, but Alfie’s never met anyone like Fen before.

Except he has. At school, when Alfie was everything he was supposed to be, and Fen was the stubborn little gay boy who wouldn’t keep his head down. And now it’s a proper mess: Fen might have slept with Alfie, but he’ll probably never forgive him, and Fen’s got all this other stuff going on anyway, with his mam and her flower shop and the life he left down south.

Alfie just wants to make it right. But how can he, when all they’ve got in common is the nowhere town they both ran away from.

Spires Universe
M/M Contemporary Romance
Riptide Publishing | October 10, 2016
amazon2 bn2

“Sometimes I like my world a little rose-colored.”

This isn’t my first Alexis Hall.  A couple years ago I read For Real, and I liked it.  I gave it three stars, but I haven’t forgotten about it and that’s pretty huge.  When it comes to the contemporary romance genre, most of the time I forget about the book within a couple months so when they stick with me it means something.

What I like about Alexis Hall’s writing style is that he adds a level of realism to the characters.  I understand why it would be a turn off for some readers, but this reader likes that he includes descriptions of a rough toenail, or acne, they’re basically the human flaws we all have.  I love reading the imperfect, because it actually makes it feel perfect.

In Pansies we get a story of reconnection and redemption.  Alfie bullied Fen in high school, likely out of a subconscious self-hatred (in my opinion), and now as a man he’s faced with those adolescent choices when he seeks Fen’s forgiveness.  Not only does he realize just how awful he was, he’as also attracted to Fen.  This could have been ‘romance novel’ typical, but thankfully I liked the way their history was handled.  It was perfect that Alfie wasn’t entirely self-aware from the beginning, because I feel like bullies rarely are.  When confronted with what he did, his first reaction was to tell Fen how Fen should have acted differently.  Not been so in everyone’s face.  Again, a tactic most bullies use.  Blame the victim for being easy to bully.  He also threw out the ‘we were kids, it was kid jokes’.  He had to break down those truths for himself, and we as the reader got to watch him grow.  I also liked that Fen’s reaction wasn’t to let Alfie off the hook too fast.  He made Alfie work for it.  Alfie had to prove it.

The only downside came at the end.  Some stuff went down, and I was really hoping that Fen would fight for Alfie with the same passion that Alfie had been fighting for Fen.  I love when there is that level of balance between the main characters.

Lastly, I thought the differences between Alfie’s family and Fen’s really worked well with how Alexis Hall built the psychology of the characters.  Of course Alfie struggles with his sexual identity, his family is shit at acceptance.  Fen struggled with the community, but he always had the support of his family so it made sense that he was more comfortable with himself.  I also appreciated that these familial connections weren’t anything to be fixed.  It was just how things were, and no amount of long conversations was going to change the minds of the kids or Alfie’s parents.  Again, as sad is it is, that’s usually reality.

Anyway, that’s two books and I enjoyed them both.  I think I’ll definitely be checking out some of Mr. Hall’s backlog now.

“Fen actually bit his lip, another strange, uncertain sound, not quite moan, not quite whimper, echoing through the bathroom.
Somehow Alfie managed not to kiss him.  He wanted to taste that noise.”

Thank you to Riptide Publishing for a copy of Pansies in exchange for an honest review.


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3 Responses

  1. Nice review. I’m glad you enjoyed this one. 🙂

    I don’t mind realism, either, and telling me the character has acne gives me some description. Hitting me over the head with it by refreshing my memory multiple times takes away the sexiness of the story for me, which isn’t an issue if it’s not supposed to be a sexy story. But we’ve had this conversation before. LOL


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