Title: Carry The Ocean
Series: The Roosevelt #1
Author: Heidi Cullinan
Genre: M/M Contemporary Romance
Publisher: Samhain Publishing
Published: April 7th 2015
Rating: 5 Feathers
It’s like Elwood Blues says: everybody needs somebody to love. I’m an everybody. I get a somebody.
I really like Heidi Cullinan. I know I’ve only read 3 of her books so far, but I have loved all three of them! Personally, I think that one of the hardest obstacles an author faces is the ability to breathe real life into a written character. In television and movies the screenwriters come up with a character, creating the basic mannerisms and personality traits, but then they pass those details to someone else whose job it is to become the character. An author has to make the magic all by themselves. Heidi Cullinan makes magic.
Both Jeremey and Emmet were believable sympathetic characters. In particular I could relate easily to Jeremey’s depression and anxiety. The panic attacks and fear, and the paranoia that everyone is looking at you, talking about you, thinking you look stupid, is overwhelming. I know that weakness. I have my patterns and comfort zones. I know which stores are ones that I feel comfortable going to. I’ve never been as crippled by anxiety as Jeremey but it wasn’t hard to imagine how it could get that bad, especially having the parents he did. They were without compassion for any disability, let alone the invisible ones.
Emmet was actually my favorite part of Carry the Ocean though. It was obvious that Heidi spent a lot of time researching autism and behavior modifications. Emmet was so honest. It was his chapters that made me cry, but not because I was sad. I cried because he was so amazing. Even when he struggled he was so strong and kind. He fought so hard to prove that he was his own kind of normal, and that it was okay. He helped Jeremey recognize that we are all our own normal, and that we need to embrace it.
Heidi Cullinan took these two characters and gave us a slow moving, beautiful love story. There wasn’t any angst, no 3rd party forces trying to destroy them (other than Jeremey’s mother). It was a story of two young men who struggled with their own disabilities but found true happiness in each other. They were best friends first, and then they were more. It was beautiful.
I’m so sad that I read Carry the Ocean as fast as I did. I wish I could have paced myself more, stretched it out longer than just two days. Unfortunately I wasn’t in control. The book had it’s claws deep inside me; all I could do was hold on tight as it took me on a ride.
Goodreads says this is a series, and that there will be future books that take place in The Roosevelt. I’m thrilled! I’m also so thankful Heidi Cullinan has a large backlog of books for me to discover while I wait, and seeing as I’m 3 for 3 I’m pretty confident the my odds are good and I’ll like a lot more of them!
I am normal. I belong. I have a friend who can kick ass from a wheelchair. I live independently and get good grades. I’m an excellent lover.
Like I said. I’m awesome. I’m Emmet David Washington. Train Man. The best autistic Blues Brother on the block.